8. Would have been nice to keep this confidence up.
Sometimes I'd actually dress as a girl back in these days. But then my mom could still dress me. I was also way skinny, and friends with everyone. No trace of social awkwardness. (That I can remember) My hair was a lot lighter when I was a child, it sort of darkened with age? But not that much, it's still a light brown. Always and forever a tom-boy. Huge fucking brat. Stuffed animals were the shit, bro. <3
12. What the fuck am I even doing? (started age 10)
Once 5th grade came I somehow no longer knew how to interact with human beings. (Probably on account of changing schools)
And I just became more awkward as time went by. This year I also gained a bunch of weight and, ehh... I was also hell-a violent at home. Very mouthy, and around this age is when depression hit me. Also, jackets were cool.
15. It's not a faze mom! (Started age 14)
I was like some sort of semi-goth. I finally got a dog and that really helped change me for the better. I got a lot less violent at home, pretty cool man. (Not that I entirely got better) My depression fluctuated something terrible in these years, but again, I had a dog and I think she really helped from anything too bad happening. Let's see.. Ah yeah, I also believe I was better then everyone at this time. Like, holy shit did I believe myself to be superior. But I also had some really bad self hatred. So "I'm better then everyone, but I'm also the worst person to exist ever." Social awkwardness just got worse. Didn't help that I dressed like a weird-o, nor that I looked 13 all thru my high school years. I had loud, kind of annoying opinions at this time. This stage literally lasted from when I entered high school, till a few months after I left.
18. Everything is cool bro.
Plaid and dressing in layers is the shit man. And I decided how I used to dress was really fucking weird and I hated everyone who dressed like that because they were attention seekers. Thru this stage of my life I eventually did NOT think like that, but at least from the initial start I did. After high school I stopped thinking I was better then everyone, and just stuck to believing I was a piece of shit and everyone else was better then me. (: Lost some weight, that was cool. Depression would come and go, but it was pretty controlled at this point. Social awkwardness was realized to be full on social anxiety, and that just keeps getting worse even to this day. :I (My hair was actually longer then shown here. :U Nearly to my booty) Sometimes I would still have those loud annoying opinions, but by the time I was 20 was when I REALLY became the "everything is cool bro" person. Accepting whatever and whoever. I could still have opinions, but so could everyone else.
22. I'm one sexy man-women.
Still basically the same as the 18 stage, (Ehh, not that I act like 18 year old me, but I still dress like that, and a lot of what I think of myself has stayed the same) I think I've gained a bit more confidence from my lack of hair. Also dressing fancy as fuck is nice. Finally decided even if I'm a girl I can embrace my manly-ness as much as I damn well please. It's not like I enjoy being a women anyways. lol
Ps. Stuffed animals are still the shit, bro. <3
Finished this as fast as I could, need to get all my personal pics out of the way so I can start focusing on commissions. uwu
(I'm not 22 yet, but screw you only 5 more days till I am)
Now that I AM 22 I can get rid of that.